Monday, February 11, 2008

slightly serious note

Well, it is the season of Lent and in previous years I have given up pop, desserts, and any combination thereof. After a convincing sermon on Sunday, Ryan and I decided that we would try and give something up this year for Lent. Our goal is to stop complaining and to stop criticizing others. In the less than 24 hours that we have had to attempt these two tasks, it has been a great challenge.

I had a wonderful argument in my head as I drove to work this morning with the lady who cut me off and then drove so slowly in front of me. I thought of all the ways I could help her improve her driving and then was gently reminded that I was to give mercy and not critique in these next days. So instead of laying on my horn as I is my usual response, I gripped the steering wheel a little tighter and prayed that I would remember all the times I drove like an idiot and needed mercy.

That's it for now, I'll keep you updated. There were more challenges throughout the day, but in light of not complaining, I'll keep them to myself and be grateful for another day:)

Sunday, February 10, 2008

The Carew Side

It's been an incredibly long time since I've posted so here it goes:

I started a pathology elective this past week which involves autopsies for at least half of the month. I didn't know how I would do, but was willing to try to be brave. The first case didn't actually happen until Tuesday and with my luck we had to wear masks for tuberculosis protection. These are not regular masks because it felt like I couldn't exchange any air because the mask was so thick. So knowing the morning was going to be rough, I ate an extra snack, but it wasn't enough.

I started to feel hot, a little suffocated from the mask, and a slight nausea- all symptoms I have had for previous passing out episodes so I quickly excused myself and sat in the hallway . . . removed the mask, cooled down, and felt better. Being the stubborn person I am, I went back, I lasted about 15 minutes, and then the same hot, suffocated, and nauseated, went back to the hall sat down, got a little sweaty, but regained control and went back. I should have given up honestly. So the last time I observed for only 5 minutes before the hotness and suffocating feeling swept over me. I practically ran out, ripped off the mask, tore off the surgical gown hoping to get cool, and laid flat on the floor. I was drenched with sweat, unable to talk for fear opening my mouth would allow vomit to escape, and was passed by 2 separate people in the hallway who didn't ask if I was okay. I laid there for about 5 minutes and then decided I had a rough morning and went home for the day:)

Oh the joys of medical school! I figured the Carews will truly appreciate the same feelings I had that day.